Lovetosmokemisty

I have had a smoking fetish since I was six years old after I had a dream that mom was letting me smoke and began cross-dressing in my teens. I have only recently come out online about my CD. I started smoking my mom's menthol cigarettes at 11 years old. And eventually was able to fulfill one of my fantasies and smoke with my mom. Which was a big turn on for me. I have always loved the way a feminine woman looks and her mannerisms when she smokes. In my late teens, I started to crossdress in my mom's clothes when I smoked. My teen years were spent wanking while looking at menthol cigarette ads. I was not interested in nudity just women smoking and trying to get to a point where I enjoyed smoking as much as my 3 pack a day mother. I have never been able to climax unless I am smoking or fantasizing about it. I love smoking passionately and am turned on, even more, when I am dressed as a girl. I would love to do some role play and age play via Facebook or Skype.