StarKissxxAJ

So this is gonna be suuuuper long and it's not because I'm going to stretch my words lol. No matter how many times I tell my story it never becomes any easier.
First off let me break the ice because I am an honest person and am not gonna lie to you. Either start packing your bags now and start running or get comfy.
Well here we go..

I'm trans.. surprised? Yes, No, Don't Care? Some girls and guys like that, some don't. But hey no more secrets now! But you know what? Wait there's nothing wrong with Transgender people. And you know what else there's more! Yep even more so get ready to start running.

*sigh* Again this conversation has never been easy and now I am sharing my story to the public so maybe I can open a few minds and maybe connect with some amazing people! But before I get ahead of myself let me stop beating around the bush.

Well.. Here we go...

My names Amelia and I have been the one writing this post. It has never been easy to talk about this but I have never have had any other choice.

I have Dissociative identity Disorder. Also known as Multi Personalities or Dual Personalities.

Now hopefully I haven't lost you yet because there is so much more.

So yeah! There that's out now and wow it is killing me not to type backspace cause I'm about to let the world think we're absolutely crazy but I just ask if I have kept you up to now that you stick around a little longer.

I want to make it clear that my "mental disorder" has been with me my whole life and it should not be linked towards anyway at other transgender people. Being transgender isn't a mental illness its a wonderful thing!

So the best place to start a story is always the beginning. I don't want to make this too much longer so I will give you the short story of my life.
Names have been changed for privacy.

So the host personality to this body is actually my counter part and best friend. I would love to have him here to talk with me but he has his own life and this is something I need to do for myself.

Ethan was born a boy he is 24 now. Around the age of 4-5 I begin to have some awareness in him. I watched as he grew up and got older and older. I was never able to do anything. Just watch life happen before me. Almost like the longest movie ever. Thank god I didn't have to worry about a bladder.

It wasn't till the age of 13 I began to make Ethan aware of me. At first he thought it was his imagination, I'd be told to shut up. He'd try to surpress me but I didn't allow that to happen. I made him feel MY pain and MY emotions and it opened his eyes and mind. He began to actually talk to me almost like a conscious. He'd call me Jimminy Cricket which I will tell you I f*cling hate.

We grew together, experienced ups and downs. Have fought and hurt each other. We had bad days and good ones. I watched him grow and he became my best and only friend.

Eventually he met a girl named Brittney and they fell in love. They've been together for almost 4 years. I won't go into how rocky let's say things were. I don't always get along with her but we worked passed it because of Ethan.

Now we are reaching the conclusion of my long long so long post. Hold in there..

Recently the idea of Ethan being Bigender (male + female) came into motion and now for the first time in my life I'm getting the opportunity of a lifetime (literally) to have my own life.

And that's why I'm here. After a few LGBT google searches and support groups I found this site.

My hope is to maybe open a few minds to the idea that yes I am my own living person with my own mind and ideas and feelings.

I'm not here to lie to anyone I only hope to educate you and maybe show you not everyone who has something like DiD is crazy. We're human and just a little different then you.

I'll leave this with my favorite quote. I appreciate all those who stuck around to the end. I hope you mind is a little more open towards myself and who I am

"Just because you can't see the wind, doesn't mean its not there."

I've held onto that as long as I can remember. Its just a stupid quote but no few words have ever described me so well.

Damn maybe I should have just said that and saved you some time lol..

Thank you xx Amelia~