I'd Just like to vent.

[Atypepoetry]

Hello

I am a 3rd-year College student. (20)
I have been in a relationship for about 5 years.
The man I'm with has shown me is deeply in love with me.
However, I always find myself hating how I live my life. I hate him sometimes for no reason. My friends make me feel loved at times and empty all at the same time.
I have moments where I want to grab a bag and disappear from everyone I know. Starting a new life from scratch is intriguing to me.
I love all the people around me dearly.

I don't understand what's wrong and I just need some genuine advice.

 

[BendyWendy]

I am so sorry you feel that way: life is complicated and many of us have alternate personalities that can be hard to have to hide. I hope you can find someone to confide in.

 

[TomTom401]

Hello

I am a 3rd-year College student. (20)
I have been in a relationship for about 5 years.
The man I'm with has shown me is deeply in love with me.
However, I always find myself hating how I live my life. I hate him sometimes for no reason. My friends make me feel loved at times and empty all at the same time.
I have moments where I want to grab a bag and disappear from everyone I know. Starting a new life from scratch is intriguing to me.
I love all the people around me dearly.

I don't understand what's wrong and I just need some genuine advice.

Sorry to hear that life is tough unfortunately that's what they don't teach us in school as being someone who deals with depression and anxiety due to how things have happened in my own life I can understand what your saying if you ever need to talk message me id be happy to listen

 

[MissLed]

Hello

I am a 3rd-year College student. (20)
I have been in a relationship for about 5 years.
The man I'm with has shown me is deeply in love with me.
However, I always find myself hating how I live my life. I hate him sometimes for no reason. My friends make me feel loved at times and empty all at the same time.
I have moments where I want to grab a bag and disappear from everyone I know. Starting a new life from scratch is intriguing to me.
I love all the people around me dearly.

I don't understand what's wrong and I just need some genuine advice.

lol Ooo Your human lol We all feel like that from time to time And we also all need to be listened to now and then This is good place to rant and vent .Some good ears in here Maybe you'll find a stepping stone in here to get your mind, body ,soul and heart to see what you can not xox

 

[Oldgymrat]

Ask yourself what you hope to find?

Identifying this may lead to a revelation. Just going to start new, unless its done in a state of knowledge and predetermined change, will simply lead to the same feelings because YOU ARE YOU...

Unless you are aware of what triggers these feelings, you will find a lover again and revert to these feelings once the " honey moon " period is over....