I'm not sure if I've posted this before on this thread or if I've mentioned this elsewhere on this site, perhaps I just messaged this privately to someone several years ago:
It ALWAYS hurts me to cum, since the very first time I ever came.
My entire body tenses up the moment just before I explode. It feels like every muscle I'm aware of (ones of the face, neck, all 4 limbs, abs, glutes, fingers, toes, etc... In addition to all the expected muscles directly involved in cumming) involuntarily constrict intensely - to the point where most of those muscles tremble. The duration may only be for 5-10 seconds. And during the climax, after the titanic explosion, all the non-cum-related muscles relax and the pain of all that tension begins to ease.
I've only learned several years ago that this is not a typical experience for women (no one I've crossed paths with - either in real life or online - can relate). They can relate to experiencing a degree of pain in the cum-related muscles, but not the whole-body muscle constriction.
I love the pain! I think it brings an amazing almost superhuman intensity to every cum. I love cumming, again and again and again! In an appropriate setting (ex. when the kids aren't present), those who hear the cries I make, have commented that it sounds like I'm being murdered... Those cries are
a visceral reaction. Completely different and rawer vocals than any hard core porn I've ever seen - except perhaps some crazy "sex and submission" dungeon scenes with those hardcore restriction contraptions or being hogtied in a manner where moving out of certain positions leads to deliberate pain in separate parts of your body. But I haven't practiced such particular scenarios in over 7 years.
I'm quite embarrassed of my screams, but they always come out whenever I don't have to keep to a reasonable volume. A few men have been taken aback. Others find it a crazy turn on. I do think it generally boosts men's ego because they feel like fuckin champs in the bedroom; a total win-win for everyone.
Obviously, often, I have to work hard to temper the cries with pillows/having my mouth stuffed/keeping my facial and throat muscles completely rigid. This makes the full-body muscle pain an even more difficult experience.
A lot of people really prefer torturing me with endless orgasms rather than edging me or the standard BDSM practice of orgasm denial.
My way of cumming is all I've ever known in my 15 years of sexual adventures and it's fucking great! I think I get a greater "high" from cumming because of this involuntary bodily reaction.
Oddly enough, when I squirt, I can't/don't tense all my muscles. My body has to be a lot more relaxed, and only the involuntary muscle sensations I feel is due directly to the fierce action inside my ass/pussy.
Can anyone relate? A woman with a similar experience? Or even a guy who feels like a chick may have experienced this during a fuck?
I wonder if I can learn to cum without the full-body muscle tension. Recently, some health issues are making it harder for me to cope with the aftereffects of the extreme involuntary tensing of the muscles. If I tell this to my partner, he'll be too concerned about my pain to fuck me roughly and treat me like his filthy little fuck toy (which would make me very very sad

).
Has anyone experienced this and can suggest anything? I'm open to trying both tried-and-tested techniques as well as anything rumored to help.
A heartfelt thanks to those who read this entire ridiculousness!

I have a feeling this post is even longer than how long I'm suspecting it to be. So sorry!!! But this is something I've wondered about for years. I used to get off on the pain before my body started crashing on me. I've managed to push past the pain until now. But soon I won't be able to hide the pain anymore. Thus, it's vital now for me to find any additional knowledge that can help me maintain my sexual endeavors - a major part of my identity. A lot of activities are restricted for me right now because of my health. I don't know how I'll enjoy the quality of life if I'm also unable to engage in mind-blowing sex almost daily.

