Depression

I struggle with depression myself and it is not fun. It's gotten better ever since I moved out on my own when I was 19. Lexapro kinda helped me out when I was younger and when it was worse. If I'd known more about different medications back then I would of definitely taken something different. I didn't like the fake happiness feeling it gave me. If u are ever struggling with depression, please seek help because it will get better. It won't be right away but people are out there who want to help u out.
 
I deal with the same. I always try to remember that my perception of events is skewed towards the negative and to try to balance that.
 
I have struggled with depression most of my life, yet I once developed the ability to control my reactions and emotions. I was unflappable, I could accentuate the positive, I could hope and dream and persevere.

Then, over a period of several years, certain events and choices made by other people and also by myself, ever so slowly whittled that ability away. I was broken, and I could find no space to heal. Things that had once given me comfort and hope began instead to cause me pain. I could find no solace.

There have been times in my life when I have had few, or even no friends, when I felt like I did not fit in anywhere. More than anything I wanted friends and friendship. I have done some things over the years, in the name of seeking friendship, that have been mistakes, have hurt people and pushed friends away.

This was all before Covid. I was already feeling isolated, but the pandemic shifted that isolation into overdrive. I have looked for people to help so I could forget myself, but it seemed that no one wanted my help, that people neither needed nor desired my friendship.

I apologize for this downer of a post, but I am sure that there are many who may also feel this way, or feel similar feelings and have similar thoughts. Everyone is dealing with something, everyone is having their own challenges and disappointments. Many people we know and interact with regularly are fighting battles that we cannot see.

We should seek to have compassion and understanding. We should forgive, let people grow, believe that people can change and improve. Above all, we should be kind, we should always be kind. I find myself at times posting quotes about kindness because that is what I want most of all, for people to give me the friendship and kindness I want so much to give to others.
 
i think many of us here have a formal diagnosis or probable diagnosis. i have struggled with MDD since I was 17. What gets or hurst me is that since depression isn't necessarily seen like a physical ailment people have very little empathy or compassion for what the person is going through. then when the person seeks an out for the pain the same people stand around saying why didn't they come to me.
 
Bennettrose said:
i think many of us here have a formal diagnosis or probable diagnosis. i have struggled with MDD since I was 17. What gets or hurst me is that since depression isn't necessarily seen like a physical ailment people have very little empathy or compassion for what the person is going through. then when the person seeks an out for the pain the same people stand around saying why didn't they come to me.
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Sorry to hear you are struggling.
 
Bennettrose said:
i think many of us here have a formal diagnosis or probable diagnosis. i have struggled with MDD since I was 17. What gets or hurst me is that since depression isn't necessarily seen like a physical ailment people have very little empathy or compassion for what the person is going through. then when the person seeks an out for the pain the same people stand around saying why didn't they come to me.
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Invisible illness was coined into the spoon theory. For people who don't know about it, it is an interesting read: https://health.clevelandclinic.org/...spoon theory is a,who lives with chronic pain.
 
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