aaShyBoy
New Member
im xavier. heres a picture of me so you know who you're talking to if you cbf checking my page out :/
ive been sitting on forums like i use to do growing up so as you would know ive put my social life to the side because of drama going on in my life until im comfortable to show my face again and start my new job...
compassion is in my blood but the scene I'm growing up in has no sympathy so I'm back to feeling bullied and worthless...I'm a songwriter and I have loads of material on youtube if we get close enough maybe I can show you who I am...honestly though i feel like shit these days which is why I'm on here, I wish I could say it was a leisure thing... 93% of the underground rap scene here in australia believe I am one of the best in the country...but i am simply over life and feeling like such a fucking loser because i've made mistakes in my life...
people can be so cruel and heartless to the point where i don't even actively use social media anymore...I've locked myself in my house and all I do is sit on forums all day long hoping one day I would meet a genuine friend that will be there to talk...regardless of my situation though I still write music around the clock also hoping that one day I will go back to shining as a rapstar when I do decide to get in touch with my network again and start working hard for the future I know I deserve...im a taurian starseed so I will never give up without a fight although I have been fighting forever it feels like my soul is growing ever so cold and I don't know how long I can stick around for because my spirit is dead set getting weak
any way I hope someone can shine light upon me...I'm really sorry for writing so much x
