Well I had better go to bed cos 3 hours and I have to get up …..I don’t really but my silly head still can’t chill and let me sleep oh no it thinks I have to get up at 6 still get up for work…goodnight to whoever is here …or goodnight to myself lol
It’s funny how things change ..this morning I felt ok and was getting ready to go to town and then the missing and sadness kicks in so I cancelled my day and just sat at home…. I've learnt there is no point fighting it so just kinda embrace it and deal with it
Sorry I know this isnt interesting but just kinda makes me feel a bit better writing this things down
Why am I still here?
It’s like I’m sick in the head and I’m torturing myself or something
Fucking useless, boring and pathetic that’s what I am
Anyway time to go to bed …goodnight
If you read this then I wish you a happy Christmas with friends, family or if your alone then I wish you extra Christmas happiness
I’m done …Im sorry I just can’t do this anymore so not that many will care and don’t blame you but I’m off to shut myself away and drink myself stupid or more stupid than I already am …might be back in a few days or a week or I dunno right now
See someone is getting her bantering self back it’s good to see you happy again.
I know it’s thirsty Thursday but watch how much you consume please I don’t want your silly ass falling down steps again do I
Have a great night and a boss weekend
Big brummie hugs
A good friend of mine sent me something to read….something which has really helped me and this is a quote which has stuck with me …I’m gonna put it here so I can be reminded of it daily
The greatest fear in the world is the opinions of others. And the moment you are unafraid of the crowd you are no longer a sheep, you become a lion. A great roar arises in your heart, the roar of freedom
Every smile, every laugh, every tear and every flutter in my tummy will forever be remembered
Every loving, caring and supportive word you have said to me I will always hold so close to me
Tomorrow is a day that means a lot to me ….i know it’s gonna be a struggle from the moment I wake up and I’m kinda dreading it …lol even now it’s getting to me …ah well will put it to the side for future me to deal with tomorrow
Like I said in my profile if you have something to say about me then say it direct to me instead of hiding it in a thread …..I won’t bite back ..I don’t have the energy and I’m truly not bothered in online petty shit anymore

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