Society is full of good people. It is more challenging to accept help from them. Be cautions but not so cautious that you alienate them and you will find special people to surround your self with.
Get a $8 dollar Node MCU and the free Arduino IDE and play around in command line C. The ESP8266 has more power than your calculator plus WIFI. you can even program it thru an LUA interface.
I'm personally a giver. The times I take a stand and ask for something leaves me feeling guilty. I do not get run over to much though and it makes me happy. Being happy is what counts.