Chris3976

I hate that I feel this way. I hate the way my heart aches for her. I hate that I get excited to see her, and they barely acknowledge your presence. I get it, shit changes, people’s feelings change. But I never thought we’d only talk when I start it. I love her, still do. But, how can you feel love when they don’t. You can’t, I’m just wasting my time. Like usual, I’m a waste of time.

“So you really want to know how I feel?”

No matter what I do, I feel like I’m never enough. I’m exhausted trying to hold everything together, be what everyone needs, and still feeling like I fail. I compare myself to everyone else and always feel one step behind, stuck in constant doubt. I wish I could silence the voice telling me I’m not worth it, but right now it’s all I hear.

You brought me sunshine, when I only saw rain. You brought me laughter, when I only felt pain.