Battling depression? You're not alone.

DV8Rune

DV8Rune

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If you ever need someone to talk to contact me. Until then I hope you enjoy this work of mine.

DEPRESSION
It's a bright beautiful day
And I sit alone in the dark.
I have so many things to do
And yet no desire to do them.
Family and friends that reach out
And yet I always fell so alone.
The art that I've always loved
Has lost its luster and draw.
My words that once flowed free
Has become forced and it shows.
The joys I once had with little things
Has disappeared and began to hide.
So what does this mean to me
And those that I care about?
What will it take to revitalize
And what will I have lost?
How will I ever be me once again
And who will still be by my side?
 
Here is one that gives me a reason to keep on...
Sisters of Mercy
Leonard Cohen
Oh the sisters of mercy, they are not departed or gone.
They were waiting for me when I thought that I just can't go on.
And they brought me their comfort and later they brought me this song.
Oh I hope you run into them, you who've been travelling so long.
Yes you who must leave everything that you cannot control.
It begins with your family, but soon it comes around to your soul.
Well I've been where you're hanging, I think I can see how you're pinned:
When you're not feeling holy, your loneliness says that you've sinned.
Well they lay down beside me, I made my confession to them.
They touched both my eyes and I touched the dew on their hem.
If your life is a leaf that the seasons tear off and condemn
They will bind you with love that is graceful and green as a stem.
When I left they were sleeping, I hope you run into them soon.
Don't turn on the lights, you can read their address by the moon.
And you won't make me jealous if I hear that they sweetened your night:
We weren't lovers like that and besides it would still be all right,
We weren't lovers like that and besides it would still be all right.
 
Depression fucking sucks. I lived with it for 15 years before I got on the right medicine. Steals so much. It's all about the fight though, pushing myself to get up when I don't want to and go for a walk outside, break my isolation with safe people, intentionally do things that nourish my soul and surround myself with positive & compassionate people. Without those things I wouldn't be here today ❤❤❤
 
Z-00 said:
The hard part is meeting safe people.

Backup 10 years and I was always the guy upfront meeting new people and having a blast with them. What happened ?
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Yep, that's what happened to me after I got hurt bad enough... trusting that someone is safe even though you never really know. You just have to make your best judgment call and go with it. Get to know them, give them small things and see how they handle the info
 
Or our expectations are too high....people are people....flaws are normal, abuse is not normal. I try not to expect anything more than your not physically or mentally hurting me. If your just someone who annoys me ....I can walk away.

That thought is liberating for me..... I can control who I have in my life. It doesn't mean I always practice what I preach, but ....I could....and that is often enough to push through.
 
I'am a transgender female and I deal with constant depression and also constant body dysmorphia meaning that I have a mind and body disconnection which causes me to be depressed about my gender identity sometimes so if I could remake my body I would definitely be an hemprodite instead of a guy.
 
Fall into depression when i was 16... after physical abuses and psychological problems.
Lost all my friends. A depressed girl is no fun. Used to self-harm, think about suicide everyday.

I did 10 years of therapy and got medicated for my depression. So i don't harm myself or even think about suicide anymore.
But there is no treatment for my psychological issues. I barely gets out of my appartment... so i'm still all alone. Without any friends.

I'm fucking lonely. All the time...
 
Sarah_100 said:
Fall into depression when i was 16... after physical abuses and psychological problems.
Lost all my friends. A depressed girl is no fun. Used to self-harm, think about suicide everyday.

I did 10 years of therapy and got medicated for my depression. So i don't harm myself or even think about suicide anymore.
But there is no treatment for my psychological issues. I barely gets out of my appartment... so i'm still all alone. Without any friends.

I'm fucking lonely. All the time...
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What a journey you have been on. Wow, thank you for sharing so much of yourself. So glad you're here! If you ever wanna chat, I'm a good reader
 
DV8Rune said:
It does, as do we. To many people lose their life to this though. I've been battling for years and know what it's like to feel alone. It's unfortunate but a lot of people just don't understand.
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Alone isn't the same thing as lonely. You can be alone and not be lonely. Just as you can be in a crowd and feel alone as ever.

I'm in no position to give advice, or to pretend to know the secrets of the universe. Usually, I'd say run far away from those people. But in my opinion, and speaking only for myself; the key is learning to be comfortable with yourself.

Fix yourself up, tell the truth, be productive and in time you'll learn to value your time alone. Because you won't get on your own nerves so much and you'll have self respect. And if you still want the company of others, doing this will make you more fun to be around, and you'll have more confidence reaching out to others, because you don't need them so desperately.

If someone wants to turn their life around, I'd recommend this book: 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos

If someone were to want to learn easy ways on how to effectively communicate with people: How to Win Friends and Influence People

And if someone needed a quick laugh:
 
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