I was going to say that it's a hate-love triangle, but I honestly don't know. If I lose, fuck it—learn from it and try next time or move on. If I win, okay, cool—what can I win next? (novelty wears off quickly enough and I move on)
Do you ever wake up in the morning and stay in bed for too long, because you're thinking about all sorts of shit going on in your life, instead of rolling the fuck out of bed and getting ready for work?