Hi. I am a guy. 25 years old virgin. I am chinese 1.85m 80kg. i am living in south Malaysia near to Singapore.
I am living with mania depression. I feel like i am so unlucky in my life when compare myself to others.I never had any sexual experience in my life and also sexually awkward, neither having any intimate relationship and love. I never had a successful intimate relationship but i was played by play girl recently. It hurts me a lot when i was so emotionally attached to her.
I dont know why god design and hard wired my brain become so horny, but i cant never express my sexuality even i am male. I always want to have sex but i know nothing will really happen. I feel i am living in existential crisis that i like sth which is sex but it doesnt really exist in my world. I also want hugging, kissing, feeling safe and trust, feeling warm, care by others.
Sometimes i dont like feeling like getting turn on by others. I dont really know how to live with my own body. I also wish i can at least castrate chemically myself so that i can feel my life is in control
Nevertheless. I wish i can make some sincere friend here. I hope i can meet people who are also live in south east asia area.
Regards
I am living with mania depression. I feel like i am so unlucky in my life when compare myself to others.I never had any sexual experience in my life and also sexually awkward, neither having any intimate relationship and love. I never had a successful intimate relationship but i was played by play girl recently. It hurts me a lot when i was so emotionally attached to her.
I dont know why god design and hard wired my brain become so horny, but i cant never express my sexuality even i am male. I always want to have sex but i know nothing will really happen. I feel i am living in existential crisis that i like sth which is sex but it doesnt really exist in my world. I also want hugging, kissing, feeling safe and trust, feeling warm, care by others.
Sometimes i dont like feeling like getting turn on by others. I dont really know how to live with my own body. I also wish i can at least castrate chemically myself so that i can feel my life is in control
Nevertheless. I wish i can make some sincere friend here. I hope i can meet people who are also live in south east asia area.
Regards
