Maybe it's bc ppl say I'm awesome but never say why..or could be I'm not used to it, or I just don't feel it I guessI can totally relate to the last part, I have always felt uncomfortable getting any compliments. I have always deflated, dismissed, and downplayed them. But there are a few people in my life that don't let me get away with that. They also happen to be the important ones in my life. I have learned over the years an uncomfortable thank you from me makes them feel better.
Anyway all I'm trying to say is I understand
All I know is I feel hollow & broken & like I said connections if not I guess what's the point