I feel this a lot, especially when your time zone doesn't always align with the people you get on with. sorry to hear it, we love having you here :'( but do what's best for you girlie
Thoughts Post your little thoughts.
I feel this a lot, especially when your time zone doesn't always align with the people you get on with. sorry to hear it, we love having you here :'( but do what's best for you girlie
I feel this too. I never fit in with any of the groups here. It sucks and messes with your head for sure. I will say, I have seen you around and I know there's a good amount that appreciate having you here.
Breaks and limiting your time here are a massive help, trust me I know.
Thanks for the kind words. I’m sure the time zone doesn’t help. Sorry just feeling sorry for myself …
Thanks for the kind words. I’m sure the time zone doesn’t help. Sorry just feeling sorry for myself …
don't apologize for feeling sorry for yourself. you're feeling it for a reason and that's okay <3
Everything you said is valid and it's okay to feel that way. Never apologize. It will pass (generic af, but it's true)Thanks for the kind words. I’m sure the time zone doesn’t help. Sorry just feeling sorry for myself …
What a shame you feel like this. You're one of my highlights for coming here that's for sure.
Just going to echo everyone else and say I feel this from time to time as well.
Time zone issues being a major part it me.
I always enjoy seeing you pop up and hope you can get over this feeling
Soooo sorry you feel this way, reading over some of the replies, i just need to say never say sorry for how your feeling
Yes can be hard being an 'outer' , trust me i know all about that
But dont forget you are your own place and you do you, i've seen your posts and interactions and clear to see from the outside looking in you are really well liked here, but easy for people to say that, but hard to believe when you dont feel it yourself
Have an lovely weekend, be nice and be kind to yourself, you are funny, amazing, kind
@Lil_wonders you are seen. You thoughts are valid and you do what’s always best for you. But I for one enjoy your posts!!!
Little Christmas-themed thoughts:
One of my family's yearly traditions is to watch A Christmas Carol on Christmas Day. We alternate between the Muppets version and the George C. Scott version. I love them both dearly, but the George C. Scott version is my absolute fave
The scene near the end where Scrooge reconciles with his nephew Fred and meets Fred's wife is my favorite part of the whole thing - all three actors portray it beautifully, with humor and feeling - and the moment pictured here makes me cry every time. It's been on my mind lately and even if you're not onboard with the religious aspect of the line, it still has meaning, I think
That's all
One of my family's yearly traditions is to watch A Christmas Carol on Christmas Day. We alternate between the Muppets version and the George C. Scott version. I love them both dearly, but the George C. Scott version is my absolute fave
The scene near the end where Scrooge reconciles with his nephew Fred and meets Fred's wife is my favorite part of the whole thing - all three actors portray it beautifully, with humor and feeling - and the moment pictured here makes me cry every time. It's been on my mind lately and even if you're not onboard with the religious aspect of the line, it still has meaning, I think
That's all
Holidays are always rough, always stressful, but they seem especially so this year for many for whatever life event(s) happened. However, grief and losing a loved one, especially a parent is especially difficult. I too can understand this unfortunately all too well. Plus I have a birthday 2 weeks after Christmas, a double slap in the heart.
Keep the loved ones you have close to you, give them a hug, call them, spend time with them.
Don't whine about "that boring dinner" you just have to sit through. Some of us don't have that anymore (and never will) and one day you won't either and "that boring dinner" won't seem so bad compared to visiting a grave.
Sure, all the running around is stressful, sometimes mundane for some, but before you complain, think it through because people could be gone without warning.
*sighs* okay, end rant/not so little thoughts
Keep the loved ones you have close to you, give them a hug, call them, spend time with them.
Don't whine about "that boring dinner" you just have to sit through. Some of us don't have that anymore (and never will) and one day you won't either and "that boring dinner" won't seem so bad compared to visiting a grave.
Sure, all the running around is stressful, sometimes mundane for some, but before you complain, think it through because people could be gone without warning.
*sighs* okay, end rant/not so little thoughts
Ever feel just like meh and feel like you shouldnt be happy or shouldnt deserve to be happy??? Nope......just me so
I know i know everyone's deserves to be happy, well not everyone there's some people that dont deserve one bit of happiness (not anyone on this site before people start thinking its about some people here)
But just feels like fuck off, you took so much from me, broke me, i rebuilt myself back, but your always fuckin there still, them little whispers, them words i'll never ever forget
But you wont fucking win, you might knock me down, but i'll always get back up, might take longer at times
Fuck i hate you, hate what you done, hate how you still make me feel about myself at times
This is a rant, to get off my chest, not a sympathy post, so no need to respond, just yeah its where my head is
I know i know everyone's deserves to be happy, well not everyone there's some people that dont deserve one bit of happiness (not anyone on this site before people start thinking its about some people here)
But just feels like fuck off, you took so much from me, broke me, i rebuilt myself back, but your always fuckin there still, them little whispers, them words i'll never ever forget
But you wont fucking win, you might knock me down, but i'll always get back up, might take longer at times
Fuck i hate you, hate what you done, hate how you still make me feel about myself at times
This is a rant, to get off my chest, not a sympathy post, so no need to respond, just yeah its where my head is
You’re better than she made you think you are and you know it. And you do deserve to be happy. Message me tomorrow please.Ever feel just like meh and feel like you shouldnt be happy or shouldnt deserve to be happy??? Nope......just me so
I know i know everyone's deserves to be happy, well not everyone there's some people that dont deserve one bit of happiness (not anyone on this site before people start thinking its about some people here)
But just feels like fuck off, you took so much from me, broke me, i rebuilt myself back, but your always fuckin there still, them little whispers, them words i'll never ever forget
But you wont fucking win, you might knock me down, but i'll always get back up, might take longer at times
Fuck i hate you, hate what you done, hate how you still make me feel about myself at times
This is a rant, to get off my chest, not a sympathy post
Yup !!!
I don’t always know what’s going on here, nor am I about to pretend to now. Heidi always says I live in a state of blissful ignorance but I think she left out the blissful. Anyways, each one of you above this post is a special person. I’ve interacted with each of you on different levels. I’ve hit on each one of you at some point, I’m sure of it even if it was clumsy and pointless. I don’t know you each on a personal level because if I did, you would probably be calling the cops on the creeper in the bushes but I digress.
The things that I see you post breaks my heart sometimes. I can’t fix it but I know talks of being worthless or broken is tough. It makes you feel less than what you are. These are moments in time that should not define you as a person because each one of you is a good person. If you ever need someone to talk to and reiterate that to you, I would be happy to be that person. There are plenty others who would do that as well.
I love all you ladies on here because you make it fun. You make it interesting. Please don’t ever feel like you are at rock bottom or less than you are . You have so much to give to life outside of this place.
The things that I see you post breaks my heart sometimes. I can’t fix it but I know talks of being worthless or broken is tough. It makes you feel less than what you are. These are moments in time that should not define you as a person because each one of you is a good person. If you ever need someone to talk to and reiterate that to you, I would be happy to be that person. There are plenty others who would do that as well.
I love all you ladies on here because you make it fun. You make it interesting. Please don’t ever feel like you are at rock bottom or less than you are . You have so much to give to life outside of this place.
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It has been a busy year more knowledge has been gained and I close the year with more experience in my profession than ever before. New work relationships were forged and others have said goodbye. I'm tired and the leave is well deserved but, when I look back over the last 12 months, it's with gratitude and excitement for what lies ahead in 2025. It's nice to have some time to play around here again and not just quickly peeking. You are all wonderful.
I will neither forgive nor forget.
Sometimes it’s hard to do either. I’m struggling with both at the moment too. Forgiving I can sometimes do. Forgetting? Never. I am mostly forgotten about though.
