Life slowly started getting easier once I decided to get better, not bitter. Instead of the victim, I wanted to be the victor. Instead of lying down and wallowing in my very real and legitimate despair, I used my rage and fear and pain to force myself to do something different. I still feel my emotions when they surface, but I don't allow them to debilitate me (for long). I continue to walk through this difficult, new and sometimes scary journey. In fact I run a little every day

I'm not miserable anymore and there are days that I believe are the beginning of something amazing.