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Jinxy
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Yes you were. As usual
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Jinxy
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I do not.
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Yes it did, though it's so dark in here you wouldn't know
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OnyxStorm
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My senior class photo. Can't believe it's been 13 years now. I was 18. Crazy! Click on the pic to make photo bigger. 
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Anonymous_boi
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So preety.
My senior class photo. Can't believe it's been 13 years now. I was 18. Crazy! Click on the pic to make photo bigger.
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Thalassa
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I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
You made a choice for the better and choose to learn what works for you and what not what trigger you and what not and you learn to manage mostly for you but also for those close to you. And look where you are today !! Stabble for the better part of the day and rest of your life ❤I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
I think you are 100% correct that everybody has some kind of psychological issue. We wouldn’t be human without it. I think a lot of people never really recognize those issues, much less discuss them with anybody. Even if they do talk about them, most (myself included) never are able to talk about it publicly. I admire being able to do that. Thanks for sharing.I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
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OnyxStorm
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Beautiful soul still ❤ that's why I like to spread awareness about my illnesses I have and get people aware of stuff so more can understand others and make it more of a positive thing and it can be such a better world indeed.I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
I always find the good in the bad and choose to be happy because being bitter and hateful won't change anything.
I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
Thank you for sharing. There is no doubt we all go through things. What we share and show is another story. A little about me I've haven't shared... I've never handled rejection well and if I feel ignored it tends to get to me. No one owes me or anyone else anything here, but yeah it stinks when I try to interact with someone and it doesn't work out. Sometimes it just happens that way. Not all of us mesh well together. Also we all make our choices of who to interact with and I respect that.
Even though I try my best to remain upbeat and positive, sometimes I feel down. When it happens I just remember everything I do have going for me. A house to live in, car to drive, food on the table, people who love me for me, and so on and so forth. If you can it's always best to put a smile on your face.
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100% with you there on rejection and feeling ignored. I'll dwell on both of those, and they will really eat at me if I don't try to actively do something to deal with them.
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Slopps
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I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
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Come on here already and give me a hug. I already knew you were a weirdo, that's why and how we became friends
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Jinxy
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I thought about whether to post this or not. Then I remembered this is an anonymous site and who cares about what a bunch of strangers think about you.
I've had bipolar depression since my teenage years. At first you have no idea what's happening for a few years. No one talks about it and you do your best to hide it, since it's evident to you that it's not normal range behavior. After I self-diagnosed, I was determined to conquer this all on my own. I failed so many times. I drowned so many times, dropped to rock bottom depressive episodes. But I resolved each and every time I wasn't going to lose. Each and every time I picked myself up, analyzed the situation, and how to change it. I lost over and over and over hundreds of times, no exaggeration. How I got to where I am, sometimes amazes me, given the ups and downs I lived through. There were much less days of being within that 'normal behavior' range than not. When you lose so many years of your life, you have to finally admit defeat, admit that in some situations you cannot effectively and permanently restore your neurochemicals to an equilibrium. I gave in and went for meds, which I had fought against stubbornly for years and years, believing that will and determination by themselves were enough. The change was practically immediate.
Throughout it all though, I lived by the belief that you don't dump onto other people's lives. I still believe that. You smile and normalize as best as you can. If you're not doing something to better someone's life every day, you're not living. It doesnt matter if it's something small as making someone laugh, or something big and helping them find their purpose.
I don't care for anyone's pity and this isn't why I wrote this. What my point is, is that next time you feel like whining, whinging, bitching, think twice or even thrice. Choose the opposite words, the opposite actions. I choose to laugh and make people laugh. Choose positive friends. I choose happy people. It doesn't mean they are perfect, don't suffer or don't have bad days. But you uplift each other, without even knowing you are. Choose a drama-free life; some people thrive on drama. Cut negativity out of your life. Find out what triggers you and what grounds you. Be your own best friend through and through.
My theory is that everyone has some degree and some kind of psychological issue. Look at people here. It's not that hard to point out who's what. It's inevitable as a 'human being'. You 'be' your thoughts, your experiences, your past, your dreams, your fears, your cells, youe beliefs, your hormones, your choices, your circumstances. The difference is to exact your will and to choose to win. The difference is to not leave a wake of shit behind you.
If you just can't win against yourself, get professional help. There is no shame to it. You'll save yourself so much turmoil and you'll save people around you.
P.S. Yeah, I'll write however much I want.
Suck it
just wondering .... what is on offer to suck?
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UnsaintedCali
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You would ask...
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Jinxy
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Well someone had to.You would ask...
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Thalassa
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For you, Jinxy minxy, I'm... open... to everything
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Jinxy
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Hmmmm sucking everything at once seems quite over indulgent.For you, Jinxy minxy, I'm... open... to everything
