Thoughts Post your little thoughts.

Lately I been possibly just rushing things in rl . Trying find a job has been extremely stressful. I have issues dealing with stress . I’m trying to stay positive. But I want a job I’ll enjoy. As a Deaf person it a little harder to find something. I have a degree. Sometimes I miss school. It gave me purpose
 
I know that life is full of stressful situations. And I personally try to make the best of all the shit by being upbeat and happy (makes people wonder what I'm up to)! But why do people walk around looking so fucking miserable? If they really looked at themselves they would realize how fucking lucky they are, able to walk at all. Always someone worse off.
 
I’m tired of making excuses for shitty things people do in order to justify it to myself. I’m tired of sacrificing so much of myself in order to be what others need me to be in their lives. I’m tired of trying to make myself believe that I’m just irrational or too complicated, when in reality I just want something other than the “easy” option.
I’m just really fucking tired.

Ok got that out, just needed to air my thoughts. :cool:
You kinda speaking my mind
 
Sometimes it’s exhausting to try to explain everything when I don’t understand it myself. I’m on and have been on a journey to discover me . I keep losing myself in the process of trying to understand someone else . I feel I’m negative cuz of how others may perceive me . I try my best to be the best me but I am not always at my best. I’m constantly trying to explain why I’m reserved and vague . I can’t get anyone to understand I don’t want or know how to talk about my past in a good way . Even sexual stuff is hard for me . Sex was a dirty word for me probably cuz of the way I was treated during it . I don’t hate men or sex . I hate how I’m treated and when a man gets upset with me im the problem. It my fault . I’m tired of being the problem.
 
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