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All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed surgery because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
 
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RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed therapy because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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And still you manage to spread some positivity hardly ever complain and enjoy as much as you can you are way to hard in yourself. Chin up you are doing great x
 
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RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed therapy because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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Thank you for sharing. It's nice to see "real" people here. XOXO
 
RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed surgery because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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What to say when words are not enough?
Ty for sharing your experience, hope you could find some positive energy on fcn.
Wish you all the best in future❤
 
I am pretty good at using your Vs you’re ( altho sometimes use the wrong one as I type and am to lazy to go back and fix it). But I sometimes get tripped up on than Vs then. And I know the rule, but sometimes it just doesn’t sound right.
 
RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed surgery because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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RavishMeTender69 said:
Holy shit... I am so verbose today. What's wrong with me?!?! Sorry. Who do I think I am that people will want to read about me. I'll wait a while to see if anyone finds it interesting and then I'll just delete.
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When you do open up like this, apart from the relief that you get from unloading, there are people out there who may relate to your pain and struggles (in varying degrees of overlap) and benefit from learning your experiences and and steps/plans that you have to solve your problems.

Thank you for sharing - and please share as much as you want!:)
 
I can read ppl like a book ..I've been quite good most of my life at picking up on wish washy vs genuine ..I think the older you get and the more life experience you get ..you become wiser especially if you listen and dont just listen to talk .
 
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