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RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed surgery because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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I Think you're beyond awesome and I think that you have so much to offer in wisdom and authenticity ..its refreshing to see that to see someone whose been through hell and back and understands perspective .. some never choose to see more than one side ..but you my friend have those kaleidoscope eyes
 
I believe in being a realist . There are opinions and then there are facts . The two can not cancel out each other . I think opinions are great but facts matter the most . I've also learned that facts may not always be something an individual wants to hear but they outweigh opinions any day of the week when sufficient validation is provided .
 
xDawnBBW said:
I once crowd surfed at ozzfest 07 at the 2nd stage... I was thinner :rolleyes:
Got groped alot.
It was nice
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Sounds very cool both for you and the people who touched your lovely bits :D

I was invited on stage by the vocalist of Biohazard because he stood on my shoulder ( and another guy's shoulder) and played guitar in the crowd.
 
Pppp99 said:
Sounds very cool both for you and the people who touched your lovely bits :D

I was invited on stage by the vocalist of Biohazard because he stood on my shoulder ( and another guy's shoulder) and played guitar in the crowd.
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Ya know.. of there's one thing I miss the most with covid... fucking CONCERTS! I've been wanting to go to one lately. I missed some good ones with all the cancelations
 
RavishMeTender69 said:
All my life, my mind has been horribly out of touch with my body - to a very alarming degree.

"Listen to your body," has been most people's advice to me for so many areas of my life:
- how hard should I push myself, mentally and physically
- how much should I be eating, giving some drastic lifestyle changes
- when is the pain of working out a healthy pain and when is it a warning to stop
- what is a medical emergency

Being dissociated from somatic experiences has it's positives:
Ex.
- I was tinkling blood, it hurt like a mother fucker. But I went to work, sucked it up, produced high quality work. Still blood, still pain. After work was over, symptoms still persisted so I did go to the ER. The doc told me I had passed a kidney stone earlier that day. I was able to not miss a day's work.

But it has it's negatives too:
Ex.
- I had an near-lethal car accident, but because I didn't take it seriously, thinking I was making up my nerve pain, I tried to go back to work 3 times, couldn't last the full day. Made some doc appoinments, but minimized my symptoms because I wasn't always in touch with the pain . After I couldn't use my left hand arm, lost my fine motor skills, started having walking problems and was losing bladder control I started really being honest with my docs (3 months after accident). I still struggled with maybe I was making up the symptoms (I should have been consistently in tune with the pain, but sometimes I felt nothing). Doc said I needed spinal surgery. Up until 5 days before the scheduled surgery, I thought I had somehow faked the surgeon into thinking I needed surgery because sometimes I couldn't feel anything. I was going to ask to cancel the surgery. it was only after my neurologist showed me that parts of my left toe were paralyzed (and would remain so forever), and that paralysis would continue to spread without surgery did I come to terms that maybe this was serious enough to warrant the surgery. They cut open my neck, push asside the muscles and veins, removed a disc, planted a graft, secured my vertebrae with a metal plate and screws and stitched up my neck. It's a pretty major surgery. I was doing squats and push-ups the day after in the hospital. I drove a couple days after the surgery (you're supposed to wait at least a month bc your neck muscles are all messed up from being so moved around, and atrophied from lack of use) but I couldn't afford Ubering everywhere.

But I was listening to my body the whole time, it just wouldn't speak to me unless the pain was so high I was seeing stars.

My goal this year is to stop the very thing that helped me survive most of my life. I needed to get things done without the support of a family and my body helped me out by never allowing anything to prevent me from getting stuff done unless it was truly an almost life-or-death situation.

My goal this year was to reunite my mind and body to become healthier. Haha, but as it so happens, I am experiencing the most pain I've ever experienced in my life right now (seeing stars at least a significant portion of every day). And there's no quick fix like a surgery this time, docs are still trying to diagnose the issue. I can't help but feel like I chose the WORST time to try and do something healthy like realign my mind with my body. :confused::mad::(
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I, for one, read your posts with much interest - especially your lengthy ones. Your vulnerability, candor, intelligence and eloquence make your shares well worth reading. I'm sorry you are im so much pain. Hopefully you'll have a diagnosis soon, that will clear a pathway to better health.
 
Fildo66 said:
Oh boy ... I actually love to skinny dip. @Heidiwil watched me strip and swim in Lake Michigan when we first met. It was too cold for her. It was a bit chilly but I love that feeling.
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Hahaha I once skinny dip high up in this mountain early spring there was still some snow covering the tops i almost freez my booty and boobs off hahahaha but it was worth every second you dont always get a change to skinny dip in a natural fountain high up in the mountains it was a on a hiking trip in 2007 will never forget it images.jpeg-202.jpg
 
SweetLesGirl said:
Hahaha I once skinny dip high up in this mountain early spring there was still some snow covering the tops i almost freez my booty and boobs off hahahaha but it was worth every second you dont always get a change to skinny dip in a natural fountain high up in the mountains it was a on a hiking trip in 2007 will never forget it View attachment 224885
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That is pretty cool. I used to go to a small park after hours near my house and skinny dip. I even did it on video chat with @Heidiwil before we started living together. I would work 2nd shift and when I was done, I would grab some beer, head to the park and park my car in the farthest corner of the park (to hide it I guess) and walk down the hill to the Lake. There was a lone light there on the beach and I would strip down and go for a nice long swim. When I was done, I would sit naked on the beach and have a few beers. Then jump in and rinse the sand off. When I was done rinsing off, I would grab my things and walk naked back to the car.
By far my favorite thing to do in order to unwind.
 
Fildo66 said:
That is pretty cool. I used to go to a small park after hours near my house and skinny dip. I even did it on video chat with @Heidiwil before we started living together. I would work 2nd shift and when I was done, I would grab some beer, head to the park and park my car in the farthest corner of the park (to hide it I guess) and walk down the hill to the Lake. There was a lone light there on the beach and I would strip down and go for a nice long swim. When I was done, I would sit naked on the beach and have a few beers. Then jump in and rinse the sand off. When I was done rinsing off, I would grab my things and walk naked back to the car.
By far my favorite thing to do in order to unwind.
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There is an amazing freedom being a nudist and comfortable in your own skin
 
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