I can totally relate to this. crowds freak me out and shopping centres... even busy supermarkets give me panic attacks. So hugs SLG. I hope you find a way to work past it.
It dont freak me out or give me panic attacks I simply just dont like it I love the peace and quiet of nature as a nudist in general but have no mental or emotional problem being in crowds or busy shopping centres. I simply dont like it. But sorry to hear you have some issue with it.
I find shows like Forensic Files, Criminal Minds, Very Scary People (now a podcast).. etc. fascinating.
I love learning how crimes are solved, what all is involved and how peoples minds work... even really awful people. It's super interesting to me.