I don't know if I want to grant it to you. You are an amazing person and I think that our past is what made us into who we are today! We all make mistakes and wish we could have done things better, God knows I do! Do I have regrets, hell ya, but do I think iam a good person, yes!! I also continue to make bad decisions at times an hopefully I learn from them.
Not trying to rant on with you, just know that you are loved and you are a great man!
xo