So, I am here in a rather limited capacity. Not doing much in threads. Have almost left FCN a couple of times. Mostly feeling sorry for myself. Thing is, I don’t have any real close friends in real life. So I came here hoping to make one. I have made some good friends here. Really good people. But I long for closeness with someone, you know? Someone you just have to talk to daily, or you miss them terribly. I make friends with women easier, which is why I came here.
So I have found that in order to stay here, I need to adjust my expectations. It was painful to be here and still not have that special connection. Felt like just another place to feel lonely. I already have that, why have it here? If it were not for the good people I have met who don’t want me leaving, I could go easily. The threads are not fun for me, generally. I can play here and there, but it is not the draw. But if I can stop looking and longing for that connection, maybe playing is fun again. Not sure if anyone else feels that or ever has. But anyway, have a good day.