Apple
And here I am wondering,
restless and alone.
Something I’m all too familiar with,
heaven knows.
It never really came back.
Feelings.
My feelings.
And I can hear, I can see,
I can smell the sweetness from maple trees.
I can touch, touch, touch.
But it’s not coming back.
That feeling of love
I once had.
Maybe it’s different,
or maybe I’m weird.
Cause for some reason,
it feels like,
I don’t belong here.
I can taste the metallic bitterness on my tongue,
and those chapped lips
you tasted more than once
The only thing that seems familiar
is the surrender of touch.
The more you surrender your life to someone
the more you’ll be crushed
I am touching, touching, touching,
but oh everything just seems so
detached.
Because I cannot feel anymore.
I’m the bruised apple of the bunch.
Touching the same place
over and over;
until the appearance of
something.
Of anything that might resemble
of what it was,
we once had
But your touch just isn’t enough
anymore
The butterflies withered away,
then the cobwebs came.
For this love I once felt
uncertainty gnawed me.
The widow of my ribcage is
tearing this small heart,
and eating the love for you that I lived by
The more I surrendered,
the more I lost.
And now all that love I surrendered,
is almost gone
So if you see me picking,
see me scabbing at my chest,
see me bruising my heart
over and over
and over again
Don’t you stop me.
Pity me instead,
and pray these fingers that claw
at my heart
find you
For I long to feel
love
again