Leaving
I keep thinking about leaving,
Not the place, but who I am.
There’s a voice inside my head
That keeps telling me I can’t.
It whispers when the room goes quiet,
Gets louder when I’m alone.
Turns every little failure
Into reasons to go home.
And the bad thoughts keep coming,
Like a tide against the door.
I tell them I’m not listening,
But I’ve heard them all before.
I’ve packed away the better days,
Put the photographs face down.
I keep looking for an exit
In a life I can’t get out.
And somewhere underneath it,
There’s a voice I barely know.
It used to tell me I could stay here,
Now it only whispers, go.
And the bad thoughts keep coming,
Till I can't tell them from my own.
I’m still standing in the doorway,
But I don’t feel like I’m home.
The light is on behind me,
The hallway disappears.
I thought that I was leaving
Maybe I’ve been gone for years.
I keep thinking about leaving,
Not the place, but who I am.
There’s a voice inside my head
That keeps telling me I can’t.
It whispers when the room goes quiet,
Gets louder when I’m alone.
Turns every little failure
Into reasons to go home.
And the bad thoughts keep coming,
Like a tide against the door.
I tell them I’m not listening,
But I’ve heard them all before.
I’ve packed away the better days,
Put the photographs face down.
I keep looking for an exit
In a life I can’t get out.
And somewhere underneath it,
There’s a voice I barely know.
It used to tell me I could stay here,
Now it only whispers, go.
And the bad thoughts keep coming,
Till I can't tell them from my own.
I’m still standing in the doorway,
But I don’t feel like I’m home.
The light is on behind me,
The hallway disappears.
I thought that I was leaving
Maybe I’ve been gone for years.